Of moving all his equipment
To the other side of town
Is that necessary?
Well-- here we have no privacy. Someone could come through that door at a particularly inappropriate moment.
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Do you think these TV sets had anything to do with his desire for early retirement?
No. It wasn't his idea
Oh?
He was forced out
I see
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He came to me
Hat in hand
And made a pretty good case for establishing
A mutual surveillance network.
It shouldn't be
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It seemed irrelevant
Having met him only once--
Yes. You would have no basis for an opinion
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Allowing his whole body to float,
The laws of nature understood very well
What was happening
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Do you really think it will work?
I don't know for sure
If you, of all people, don't have
One hundred pre-cent confidence--
Let me pt your mind at rest.
I have complete confidence it will work
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Don't judge a book by it's cover.
I know what you mean. It was several years ago
That he turned to me, and putting his hands on my shoulders
looked deep into my eyes and seemed about to speak
when we were interrupted..
A similar occasion never arose
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Don't think about t too much.
Apparent messages can come to us in
A variety of ambiguous shapes and signs,
Like a
Cloud drifting across the sky
At an inappropriate moment.
(Pause)
If one were to base real life decisions
On such things--
Well, it probably wouldn't matter, would it.
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It must be problematic
Like training for a rigorous
Athletic competition you have no reason
To believe will
'ever actually take place.
I can't think of a better excuse
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Even ten years ago
The links between events
Was always a possibility.
Now, on the contrary--
It's a vibration--
And that leads to narcosis.
Now tell me-- what value
Ever arose out of self induced
Narcosis.
Why do you say self induced
Don't kid yourself. I'm a man of my word.
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Death would be a good way to escape
Entering such a totally different realm is a mediocre solution
My point -- All solutions are mediocre
But mediocrity is my handle on things
Nevertheless, you do build structures of considerable fascination
Allow yourself to be captured by that fascination, and eventually emerge on the other side—
The other side of what.?
Listen to me again—
If I listen, I never escape.
(Pause)
It's your silence is that seduces me
No, just remember that I’m the one trying to escape
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How did you engineer this brief departure from your own private project
If I float temporarily across the surface of a temporarily suspended life-- do I intuit a depth that potentially sustains me?
What I know is this. If I sit in attendance, I am the one being slowly poisoned.
That’s your revenge
And your possible cure?
There are always 3 or 4 avenues of escape. As of yet, I haven't chosen
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Is it true that if I asked you to give me advice, I’d have less of a share in my own freedom?
It would be by choice
I have no choice-- just infallible instincts, which I'm trying to escape.. That’s what I’m trying to escape. And this is a painful way to lead one’s life
Then visit me. At my house
When
Now. Tomorrow. Whenever you like
Where do I find you
That's the problem. Because I’ll be following in your footsteps.
(Pause) Which of us has the advantage
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I'm not saying you shouldn't have private feelings
But you don't encourage them
Well, are they going to move this project forward, or simply provide one more stumbling block
(Pause)
Maybe it's not the feeling, it's the-- exposure of that feeling
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Can we agree, his mind seemed capable of performing several functions at the same time. I gave the illusion of speed, but what it really provided was a kind of super-stability.
He was one of my heroes, but since I realized that others would be less than sympathetic, I kept my opinions to myself
He would have approved
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This isn't the time or place for adding to the store of knowledge.
But-- suppose there's no turning back
Then, if we have to accept the inevitable, we can at least pay homage to those who preceded me
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Never forget his many sacrifices in the hopes that we, should the circumstances arise, would be similarly capable
I think about that a lot
I know you do. Perhaps-- too much even. That's why you seem to be, so often, self absorbed
But I'm not. I'm simply waiting for the occasion
To most effectively
Contribute
Now that I understand that, I feel, closer
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One side of me feels the pull of the unknown.
What about the other side
Well-- one doesn't have to reference that. I mean-- it's self evident
Yes, but-- are there still mountains --to climb--
I mean-- don't dismiss them because they seem relatively accessible. They've been named, haven't they.
That's my point.
He's already named -- every single one of them
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Is the drugstore still open?
What do you need
At the moment-- nothing. But I like to be prepared
I wonder if that's possible
(Pause)
My goals are-- relatively unachievable
He'd like that
Yes, I only hope that wasn't my only reason for choosing them
(Pause)
Right now, I feel pretty good about myself.
I can offer you this, in lieu of--
Yes
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Others have proceeded me. I know that
Maybe not
(Pause)
You understand why I hesitate.
His is a vast arena
Such things happen
I can't relate to any such statistical averages. I can only operate in terms of what I see and hear and touch.
That's fair. As long as nothing else gets overlooked.
I promise you. I am eternally vigilant
That should be enough
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It surprises me to see you almost naked
I have nothing to hide
(Pause)
You should consider that a golden opportunity
Well, just remember. I've been there before. The various options are no longer unexplored territory
That's why I feel comfortable in your presence.
Relatively comfortable.
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A SHATTERING THOUGHT
THERE MAY BE NOTHING TO KNOW
AND ERROR COMES
ONLY BECAUSE WE TRY TO KNOW IT
THE SOLUTION IS
TO KEEP SMASHING YOURSELF
UNTIL YOU BECOME-- WHOLE
TO FIND SOMETHING TRULY NEW
GUARD AGAINST ANY METHOD
OF INVESTIGATION
(THIS RESPONSIBILITY LIES IN THE ENTIRE MAN
AND NOT IN ONE SPECIAL UNDERTAKING)
IT IS STILL SOMETHING TO HAVE LIVED
THOUGHT
AND FOUGHT WITH ONESELF--
EVEN IF NO ONE ELSE EVER FINDS OUT ABOUT IT
BE INDIFFERENT TO THE QUESTION
OF WHETHER YOU WILL PREVAIL.
ONLY FIND OUT WHAT YOU SENSE
IS THERE; THAT'S ALL
NEVER TELL ME WHO YOU ARE
I WANT TO WORSHIP YOU
SOMETIMES THINGS GET SO CLOSE
THEY IGNITE EACH OTHER.
SUCH ILLUMINATION, COMING FROM CLOSENESS
IN WHATEVER REALM--
THIS IS WHAT WE LIVE FOR
A PHILOSOPHY OF INTERSECTIONS.
CONDENSATION WITHOUT FALSIFICATION
NOT TO-- TAMPER --
WITH SUDDENNESS
A BETTER WAY OF LISTENING;
LISTEN TO THE UNEXPECTED,
NO LONGER KNOWING
WHAT ONE IS LISTENING TO
THE DEFINITIVE STATEMENT IS
THE LEAST CONCLUSIVE.
WHAT IS VAGUE OR CARELESS
ACQUIRES SUBSTANCE
BY VIRTUE OF WHAT IT LACKS
TO LIVE IN SECRET
COULD THERE BE ANYTHING
MORE WONDERFUL
NEVER SHARPEN YOUR THOUGHTS TO A POINT.
BREAK THEM OFF
IN THEIR NAKEDNESS
WHEN EVERYTHING FITS TOGETHER
AS WITH PHILOSOPHERS
IT NO LONGER MEANS ANYTHING.
DISCONNECTED
IT WOUNDS AND IT COUNTS
IT COULD BE
THAT CERTAIN IDEAS
ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE ANY EFFECT
BUT TO EXIST ONLY FOR THEIR OWN SAKE
BUT IN THAT CASE
UNDISTORTED. NOTHING MORE
TELL ONESELF CONTINUALLY
HOW FRUITFUL MISUNDERSTANDINGS
REALLY ARE.
COLLECT SUCH MISUNDERSTANDINGS
LIVING A LIFE OF WASTED MOMENTS
BUT MOMENTS WHICH LIGHT UP
SUDDENLY, ALL AT ONCE
DISMANTLE KNOWLEDGE
WITHOUT DAMAGING ITS COMPONENT
PERCEPTIONS
REMEMBER: THE GODS REACH PAST
EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US
AND YET SOME, NEVERTHELESS
FEEL TOUCHED
REJECT ALL PERCEPTION
ALL CONNECTONS TO WHAT HAS BEEN BEFORE
ALL INTERRELATIONS, FOLLOW-UPS- DISGUISES
REMEMBER; MAKING GOOD USE OF YOUR TIME
MEANS NEVER AMOUNTING TO ANYTHING
WITHHOLD MEANING; NOTHING IS AS UNNATURAL
AS THE CONSTANT UNCOVERING OF MEANINGS.
WHICH EXPLAINS THE POWER OF THE MYTH:
IT'S MEANING REMAINS CONCEALED
UNFINISHED THOUGHTS--
FREE OF ALL CALCULATIONS--
TOO SWIFT FOR THE HEAD THAT REGISTERS THEM
TO ASK
HOW THIS MIGHT THIS BE USED
DEGRADED, HUMBLED
THE ONLY HOPE IN DEFYING DEATH--
IS THAT THESE MOMENTS
MUST REMAIN FRAGMENTS
NOT ORGANIZED, NOT UNIFIED.
FOLDED BACK INTO DEATH
WITHOUT BEING CORRUPTED
BY THE SYSTEM OF THE BEAST
NOTHINGS IS MORE UNBEARABLE
THAN THE MECHANICS OF THINKING.
FOR THAT REASON
DISRUPT ITS PROGRESSION
AFTER EACH REGISTERED MOMENT
ALL LEAPS IN KNOWLEDGE
OCCUR SIDEWAYS
THE WAY KNIGHTS MOVE
ON A CHESSBOARD
ANYTHING THAT GROWS IN A STRAIGHT LINE
AND IN A PREDICTABLE MANNER
IS WITHOUT SIGNIFICANCE.
THE SKEWED AND LATERAL KNOWLEDGE
IS ALONE, DECISIVE
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Suppose I were to tell you that
The beauty of your physical presence
Seems
To flash important messages
(which obliterate the more questinable
body-factory
that I know is at work
beneath the surface of things)
1)
Probably, his
was a generation ready
to re-write history.
The problem was
Automatic glue
2)
Instructions in the new
Behavorial patterns
Fell through the cracks,
But something or other
flourished
3)
The giant step forward
was accompanied by musicians
in transit, hence
the destination solidified
4)
Certain messages
Flashed simultaniously;
Therefore a worrisome silence.
5)
The science of pheripheral
Vision in which
No discoveries
Could surface
6)
Having chosen a direction
He quickly
Populated
The realm behind his back
7)
I didn't feel protected
So I perform gestures
That anticipate
The application of a
Different realm of being from
This realm of being
8)
At the moment when
Everyone glances
That momentarily reals the truth.
Why is there still
That tangle of intention
9)
It couldn't be helped,
He depended on others to
Compress a life of
Indolence into one
Intense piece of informaton
10)
To be in the realm
Of the vulnurable
Where great plans,
Statistically,
Capture the imagination
11)
He was never able
To forget his roots
In spite of a brain
That in mis-firing,
flourished
12)
The figures folowing him
Were given secret names
But there was no need to understand
Their motives, they simply
Florished
13)
Turning ideas into physical reaity
Was no longer possible.
The world was
Something else.
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There's somethig missing here. There's somehing missing in this environment.
(Pause) I can't help you. I'm not aware of anything missing
What could be missing.
You sense a gap, a void
Yes i do
But un-identifiable, of course.
If this void exists, and I believe it does, it will be impossible for us to invent a technique to uncover it, because it will continue to elude us BECAUSE of the very fact of it's existence.
(Pause)
I do not feel good about this
Let me help by postulating the following.. . .
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Nobody plans to do you any harm
Believe me.
Nobody plans to harm you
ADDENDA:
Make no mistake. It's the escaped animals that promise happiness
I count my blessings
Yes. And dreams do come true
In that, I exercise discipline.
Can you be even moe safe?
(Pause) The scale of this operation has me hedging my bets
He who hesitates is almost invisible
Those are the depths I plunder
I took you for a man of the world
No, you see me vulnurable, but so very much alive
Take my hand
It's a bargan (Pause) Now, let's begin
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Careful--one false step and you're perminant
This is my choice
Make that choice real and three dimentional
(Pause)
Other things can develop in this environment, and I can be a passive observation point
Feeling no pain?
No pain
(Pause)
Half of you is somewhere else
That means I'm totally vulnurable. How's that for something-- perminant!
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Broken promises: again.
I fault it, myself. Then I hover, suitably, and everything is ok.
Right. Because I'm not looking
Oh, you have legenday surrogates, I believe.
C an you name them?
That would evaporate every last vestige of sincerity
How about Marge, Donald, Leslie Evans--
There's an aura to everything that comes out of your mouth
You mean, a chill
Yes, to the bone. Chilled to the bone I am
(PAUSE)
Blow on your hands.
Warm yourself with your own breath.
Oh?
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It’s very problematic
It’s like training for a rigorous
Athletic competition I have no reason
To believe will
'ever actually take place.
I can't think of a better excuse. Can you?
No. I can’t
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Even just a year ago
Making links between events
Was always a possibility.
Right
Now, on the contrary--
Any such links, seem just a vibration--
that leads to self narcosis.
Ah, yes.
So tell me—please-- what value
Ever arose out of a self induced
Narcosis.
But Dutch--why do you say self induced
Don't kid yourself.
I'm a man of my word.
I believe you
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There’s one good way to escape
I think-- ntering a totally different realm would be a mediocre solution
But Dutch -- All solutions are mediocre
Maybe mediocrity is my handle on things
Ah, you do build structures of considerable fascination my friend.
So--
Allow yourself to be captured by that fascination, and then-- emerge on the other side—
The other side of what.?
Listen to me again—
If I listen, I never escape.
(Pause)
Maybe it's your silence is that seduces me
Just remember -- I’m the one trying to escape. Ok?
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Is it true that if I asked you for advice, I’d have less freedom of my own?
It would be your own choice, Dutch
I have no choice-- I only have my infallible instincts, which I'm trying to escape.. Any trying to escape my instincts leads to a very painful way of living my life
Then come visit me. At my house
When
Tomorrow. Now? Whenever you like
Where do I find you
AH, That's the problem, Dutch . Because I’ll be following in your footsteps.
(Pause)
Then which of us has the real advantage?
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I'm not saying you shouldn't have private feelings, Dutch
Well-- you don't encourage them
Because-- are they going to move this project forward, or simply provide one more fuckin’ stumbling block
(Pause)
Maybe it's not the feeling, it's just—showing those feelings
Maybe
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Can we agree to this much-- my mind seems capable of performing several functions at the same time. I Which gives the illusion of speed, though what it really provided is a kind of super-stability.
You were one of my heroes, Frenchy-- but since I suspect other people will be less than sympathetic, I keep my opinions to myself
I would approve of that stratagy
Thank you
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Let’s just say. This isn't the time or place for adding to the store of knowledge.
suppose there's no turning back?
Well, if we have to accept the inevitable, we can at least pay homage to those who preceded us
Who
My lips are sealed, Dutch
I knew there was no turning back
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Other lumberjacks have preceded me. I know that
Maybe, maybe not
(Pause)
Do youu at least understand why I hesitate.
This is a vast arena, Ducth--
Such things can happen
I can't talk about statistical averages. I can only operate in terms of what I can see and hear and touch.
That's fair. As long as nothing gets overlooked.
. I am eternally vigilant
That should be enough
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