But
Creeley drew twice that many, with people twisting on sofas or sitting
crosswise over the arms the chair to get a view, although Creeley himself chose
not to stand at the podium, noting that at 77 he knows better than to try &
stand for an hour that late in the day. Krishna & I had arrived 20 minutes
early for the reading — Tim Yu, take note — only to discover that all of the chairs
facing in the right direction were already taken, save for one that was
actually behind the podium itself. Which is where I ended up as the room filled to SRO conditions.
Since Creeley was sitting on a table on the far side, with the podium mike
twisted snakelike downward to catch his voice, I had sort of an odd sideways
vantage for what followed. In actuality, tho, I spent much of the reading
following the poems from If I were
writing this that Creeley was reading.
For
the most, Creeley read from the latter half of that book, from page 44 onward,
skipping a few things, but then adding two other pieces at the end. By my
notes, the poems he read from If I were
writing this were as follows:
·
Clemente’s Images
·
For Anya
·
Memory
·
”If I were writing this . . .”
·
Yesterdays
·
Ground Zero
·
John’s Song
·
Emptiness
·
Memory
As
he read, I thought to myself that he was focusing on elegies, a concern that is
sharply defined in the book’s latter half, whereas the first half seems to me
centered around the extraordinary sequence “En Famille,”
but that’s an illusion. For one thing, “En Famille” is the first series in
the book’s second part. There are
three sections, tho I don’t feel or hear them as such. Further, one of the
book’s most moving elegies, “’When I heard the learn’d astronomer…,’” for
Allen Ginsberg, appears in the first section. That poem as
well as elegies later for Kenneth Koch & for “Phil” (Whalen, I think, tho I
guess Guston is possible also) were not
read. Finally, it’s a stretch to hear “Clemente’s Images” or “For Anya” as elegiac.
And,
as important, there was a second, more political tone implicit in Creeley’s
reading. Not just in a poem with explicit political connotation such as “Ground
Zero,” but in a piece the Creeley characterized as a tribute to John Taggart,
“John’s Song,” that Creeley read twice, not pausing between readings, but
sounding it again as if to invoke its particular urgency:
If ever there is
if ever, if ever
there is, if ever there is.
If ever there is
other than war, other
than where war was, if ever there is.
If ever there is
no war, no more war, no other than us
where war was, where it was.
No more war, dear brother,
no more, no more war
if ever there was.
But
even here, intent as this poem is on a possibility that exists in language
& dream only, a poem of desire that one feels as sadness — “if ever” — one
senses that these are the concerns of a man Creeley’s age, like having two
poems in the same book with the title “Memory.”
These
same themes & emotions are foregrounded in the first of two poems that
Creeley read that was not from his most recent book, nor even by his own hand —
Matthew
Arnold’s “Dover Beach.” Indeed, one can hear that poem in a very
different or new way if one hears lines like
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in
with Creeley’s voice. Arnold’s “Where ignorant armies clash by
night” comes across even more starkly not just in Creeley’s New England
enunciation, which has softened over the decades, but with the knowledge that
137 years after Arnold penned those words, they are even more true than they were at the time.
Creeley
closed with what he characterized as a song, “Help!” Written originally for
Bruce Jackson’s Buffalo Report,
the poem was republished online by Counterpunch, You can find it under that latter link. The
piece’s Seuss-like rhythms —
Maybe just to be safe,
Maybe just to go home,
Maybe just to live
Not scared to the bone
—
bespeak a desire to move toward optimism & action:
Use your head,
Don’t get scared,
Stand up straight,
Show what you’re made of.
Yet
there is a brittleness here also that underscores exactly how far we might be
from emotion recollected in tranquility:
Let’s keep it that way
Which means not killing,
Not running scared,
Not being a creep,
Not wanting to get “them.”
The
desire not to be a creep is, while noble enough, hardly a positive vision. And
the line “
Creeley
spoke between poems, especially preceding “For Anya,”
a poem about “the outside” that is the existential extension of proprioception*
— Creeley was, after all, Olson’s figure for it — about the perfectionism that
haunted his youth, which he characterized as a mode of Yankee uptightness. “You
can afford to write a bad poem, now,” he quoted Allen Ginsberg as advising,
with the implication that this would be a good
thing. Similarly, Creeley suggested that the famous “I Know a Man” was, like so much of his early
work, written so as to be impregnable from outside assault. Not so much a
perfect poem as a well defended one. He had not been able to break away from
that, he said, until Pieces.
Now,
however, one sees Creeley finding actual advantage in such works — there are
kinds of statements one might make in an imperfect poem that would elude one in
a less problematic text. The struggle & confusion one must confront at the
far end of a lifespan amidst a world still much in turmoil makes great sense as
such an occasion, here on the darkling plain.
*
Proprioception, the absence within, is that knowledge of the body one gets
kinesthetically from feeling one’s organs literally rubbing against one
another, something that is possible only if there is something inside that is
“not the body” through which they can move.