Standing beside my assigned vitrine on a windless day in special
collections, I heard Jack Spicer and Gertrude Stein. Like me, they’d been drawn
by the letter B.
Actually, Spicer had been drawn by the B-things, a
baseball Joe DiMaggio signed to Marianne Moore, a drawing of the musketball
that killed Lord Nelson, a postcard of the children’s ball, a scrap of
gallantry George Washington addressed to the local belles.
Spicer hated that these things all had prior being. He
said, “God is a big white baseball that has nothing to do but go in a curve or
a straight line. . . . I often thought of praying to him but could not stand
the thought of that big, white, round, omnipotent bastard.” Gertrude Stein
stuck up for omnipotence, as why ever not, saying, “Let her be let her let her
let her be let her be let her be let her be shy let her be let her be let her
try.”
So God, who was more on Stein’s side than Spicer’s–unfair, but what are you going to do?–did,
activated by Stein, try. She tried, and Stein became Stein. It was a closed
system, like the Republican Party. Only a lot more
interesting.
Let be be the finale of seem, I
heard someone say.
Let seem seem the beginning of
be, I repeated.
How can I ever learn my lines when they keep changing? In
the vitrine nothing moved. At least we’d crossed the ecliptic & the days were
getting longer. This one in particular. But there’s
more than one. There’s every one apparently. Against which small vitrineloads of things fished out of the time stream.
Collected, all turbulence deflected, cathected, if that’s how you feel about
each other.
So. B. It begins. What does? Not
this. This has already begun. Something, then. The poem. How can a poem begin in the middle of a sound
stream? Form, that’s how. It makes being a ball, baseball, musketball,
children’s ball where they’re dressed like adults because games are serious.
Just ask Joe, though he always dressed like a special child to play his game.
If he was by himself he’d say, “Games are games,” but he’s got Marianne Moore
to say it another way or two, “since he who gives quickly gives twice / in
nothing so much as in a letter.” Two times, because B is 2nd,
and being is, too. First comes everything. Counted as
one, it’s anything, any one thing, a B. Just B, that’s all. Never argue with
the alphabet.