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Ashbery: “The Skaters,” first typescript, page 37




Today
A few snowflakes are falling in the airshaft
And my exile is full of meaning to me in this way.
The minute the door shut behind me I laughed
And gripping the jamb of the door, began to sway
Backward and forward, daft
With the sensation of loneliness, a fray
Of colored sensations that waft
Peacefully across the gray
Of ordinary feelings, like stXX small craftdele
When they put up storm signals late in May
Henceforth, a prisoner on a bobbing raft
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Of feelings to sort out. {That one daydele
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Could now wound me, no craft
Perplex. Across the way
The sun was sinking, casting gray
Shadows on the front of the buildings. I laughed
Again, feeling sadness waft
Like a soothing current. The sway
Of melancholy had officially begun, could fray
A curtain. Daft
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Little birds harped on it; daft
I remembered a peach orchard, like a raft
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And yet things remain the same. Thus one may
Live on and on, mindless of peanuts that waft
Their smell your way, like a shaft.
The old janitress laughed
To hear us there

He will have managed to
find out all about it, the
way that people do.
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